more pics from barranquilla and cartagena

Saltador says on Mar 2, 2005, 06:29:

Elmo's pics Elmo,
The picture of your burra is priceless. Tu eres loco pero me gusto mucho! :-)

teppar says on Mar 2, 2005, 07:47:

over the edge... elmodefoque...your pictures have pushed me over the edge...i'm inspired...moved...going nuts i think...you will all think me a bit mental after this posting i'm sure...i've lived such a repressed life...living for my family, for their expectations...parents divorced as a baby, raised by my father who gave up his whole world for me so in return expects i'll live my life for him...and i bought that for most of my life...i'm 28 now...still battling the garbage poured into me by my father as a child and the world around me...i'm so sensitive...so easily influenced...sneeze on me and i might cry....then i feel in love with a colombian....so unexpected because i never considered being with a nationality other than my own (armenian) and there i was head over heels with a colombiano while we're both living in melbourne australia doing our post-grad studies...who the hell would figure that would happen....so in that isolated perfect world of australia we were perfect...i lived alive, he lived alive, no family repression, no expectation...pure heart, pure soul, pure freedom...we are the same characters...soulmates definately. laugh if you will but if you ever meet that person who you know is cut from teh same piece of cloth you are then you'll understand. it doesn't always have to be someone of the opposite sex, but with us it is...so australia was a whirlwind....but all whirlwinds blow out...

now almost two years later and we're in the shit...engaged...but not really...living in two different countries as of yesterday....anyway...this isn't about my relationship so the details aren't important....what it is about is that i've learned so much on this journey...am having my eyes opened each day to what i am and how i've been living dead in my life....

and then i see these pictures...mind you i speak no spanish (Well i can swear :-) )...i am about as white as can be (my mum is from the uk so i'm blond and light skinned)....but something calls to me in these pictures....i feel like i fell in love with my colombian because it was something meant to be....all my life i was fascinated by latin culture...the language, the music, the way the women moved (i was so jealous i wanted to be that inherently sexy), the close family ties, the smiling eyes...latin culture always screamed happiness, pleasure, joy, love, family, freedom to me....and now i see elmodefoque's pictures, and my mind goes into a spin....i start thinking so many things, wanting to get out of my life, to change to shake things up....need to get this energy out of me so i'm going to post to you guys a stream of consciouness email i just wrote to my colombian. to give you a bit of background, the relationship is currently on the rocks...enjoy my little bit of craziness.....hope it speaks to at least one of you....




Feeling a bit funny this afternoon. Restless. Can’t concentrate. I’ve been buried in work and now I’m just feeling restless. Have been taking a break from work. Trying to distract myself for a bit to get out this restlessness. Looking at websites, reading stuff, trying to settle. Went to my favourite Colombia site. Elmodefoque just came back from a trip to baranquilla and posted picts for all to see. Made me more restless. I know you’ll think I’m absolutely crazy or trying ot convince you to love me by saying this, but I really want to spend more time in Colombia or a latin country. Since I was small the culture has always fascinated me. Loved the music, was envious of the sensual women, loved the dancing, the close family ties, life that makes you smile with tons of energy. I’ve always felt a connection to that world. A world I know I hardly know anything about, but which has always made me twitch, move, come alive. Probably why I ended up learning salsa. Probably why despite my saying no to anyone other than an Armenian I opened my heart to a latin. I feel so repressed in my world. So contained. I hate it. I want to live, breathe, move, shake, use my body, use my mind, move, live, be alive. I’m just closing my eyes to write this…feeling so many different things…no matter what happens between us I will learn Spanish and link my life in some way to the latin world. I just feel that. I’m trying to close my eyes and just see images of my life…feel what makes me feel alive. See where I see myself…the pictures are still fuzzy, but sutff is moving, shaking, pushing me to figure things out….i’m not this boring creature that you’ve known. Ih ate that….i want to live, I want ot move, to breathe, to shake to rattle, to live live live live live…..enough of death and worry and fear and repression. Enough living for my family and their expectations. Enough confining myself out of stupidity, a feeling of duty or obligation. I feel like I’m on the edge of a discovery…a breakthrough…a new moment a new day and new life. Its like I’m on the edge….just about to step off….i don’t’ know where I’m jumping yet but I feel with a little more patience, a little more focus a little more love and little more time I will jump off that edge into the world beyond. I don’t want this bornign life anymore. I’m going nuts in this perfect world. I need some dirt, some adventure, some change, some variety. Use this place as a jumping off point as a way to do the things I wouldn’t necessarily be able to because of financial limitations. Jump. Fly. Push the boundaries…push myself….push the limits. I’m itchy…that’s why I’m restless…itchy to get out of the repression I’m feeling. With you gone I am only focused on me and me is feeling really really annoyed. Really just contained, bored, needing to move and shake up my life. Finally leap off the cliff I’ve spent my whole life climbing up. Its not to say I’m just going to pick up or give up on my life and my job and everything around me. That’s a good lesson I’m learning ot persevere and make the best of the situation I’m living. I’m proud of me for sticking it out and making the changes in my life I have. My biggest battle that I need to overcome is my body. Its not a symptom but a manifestation of what I’m feeling in my life….its a physical representation of the way I feel caged, unfulfilled….i’m trying to fill my body with food instead of the emptiness of my unfulfilled soul which has been screaming out to live to forget the expectations of the world around me and just find my own destiny. Its all so energizing, so crazy….

Just got interrupted by an unexpected visit by babu. Alone in the office so his surprise entrance scared the heck out of me! He says hello and hopes you are doing well.

My mind is still turning….going absolutely crazy…feeling so much energy….i know its still undirected energy, but its there…yelling asking to be heard…..as I walked babu out and was coming up the stairs again a suggestion came to my mind…I know you’re not sure of me or us or anything…but I’m still going to suggest this….what about saving for a year…working our behinds off and saving money….then going…planning a life different…an adventure…a trip around the world where we figure out what we want to do and then leap into the abyss. I can do philanthropic work along the way. You can be in touch with spiritual advisors to develop your self, your ideas, your passions. We see where the world takes us. If we find a place that calls to us as home then we stop. We build the wookie institute. We make a difference in our lives first and then in the lives of those we touch. You through leadership, spirituality, the quest for self in adults. Me with children, supporting, loving, allowing them to go free. This doesn’t have to be just a dream an infatuation a moment. This can be real.

I know it all sounds crazy. This is stream of consciousness. Something I haven’t done in a long time. Just closed my eyes and stopped my mind and let my fingers write the words of my heart. Just flowed free…free….free….free…GOD IT FEELS SO GOOD! I’ve been living so dead. So wrapped up in worries about being perfect for everyone but myself. So focused on my father first, then you when you came along. Feeling like I had to be responsible for you since you gave everything up for me, and actually causing a disaster because of that choice instead of living for me…I died to take care of you and killed you and me in the process….divino J enough enough enough enough…enough.

Life is calling…I know I’m on the edge of answering…..would love you along for the ride if you find it answers your soul too….

utopiacowboy says on Mar 2, 2005, 08:22:

Wow, Elmo. Sounds like another candidate for the position. All fours.

Disclaimer: any comment I make is inane and is not to be taken seriously, and is so patently ridiculous that no one should take it seriously, even as an insult.

Disclaimer: any comment I make is inane and is not to be taken seriously, and is so patently ridiculous that no one should take it seriously, even as an insult.

elmodefoque says on Mar 2, 2005, 09:02:

Teppar, I understand exactly your feelings. I love the crap outta Colombia specially the Caribbean Colombian culture because of how incredibly joyful and lively people are even under what most in developed/rich countries would consider harsh conditions. I spent most of my time in south of Barranquilla, in places the rich barranquilleros considered a hell hole, but not me. If a hell hole is music from every corner, downing cold beers, dancing, dogs barking, sound of moto taxis, buses sending dust all over the place and missing pedestrian by inches, smell of fried empanadas, and of course moscas/flies all over the place, then this hell hole is heaven to me.
I can’t wait to go back and if you ever need a guy to show you around, I’m your man. When do we leave?

over 5 million colombianos in USA and only 27 barranquilleros, i'm one.Curramba, el mejor vividero del mundo!

oldbongo says on Mar 2, 2005, 10:17:

elmoso... your articulation is improving..
methinks you got just what you were missing..
you gotta bring that burrito here for the cowboy to ride.
the rodeo is in mayo, vas a venir?

Miguel says on Mar 2, 2005, 10:26:

Basta Ya Primero Elmo, tu necesitas regresar a tu trabajo.
Segundo, UC, tienes razon! Jajaja.
Tercero Teppar, en ingles...I hope it works out for you.

elmodefoque says on Mar 2, 2005, 10:33:

Oldgringo my man, how’s la comandate?
Articulation, what the hell is that?
My wife left Cartagena the same day you left and I took my ass and that big fat joint to Barranquilla with me. I put the joint in a condom and stuck it up my ass to avoid any problem with all the checkpoints between Cartagena and Barranquilla. They had drug sniffing dogs. After I got to a hotel and pulled out that condom, man, it was not a pretty sight.

over 5 million colombianos in USA and only 27 barranquilleros, i'm one.Curramba, el mejor vividero del mundo!

Miguel says on Mar 2, 2005, 11:03:

And The dogs died.

elmodefoque says on Mar 2, 2005, 11:45:

After spending many nights in Barranquilla clubs, both, with the well to do barranquillero and the broke ass modefoque I have come to a conclusion. To nail hot barranquilleras, in most cases, you gotta know how to dance; the gringo passport is not a sure thing, that works better in Medellin, Cali, Bogotá, etc. In Barranquilla you’ll see many super hot looking babes but you will also see lots of hot looking barranquilleros with mucho pesos that could dance their ass off and the broads go crazy for them. Best suggestion for guys going to barranranquilla, learn how to dance! In Barranquilla, dancing is equally as important as food and water.

over 5 million colombianos in USA and only 27 barranquilleros, i'm one.Curramba, el mejor vividero del mundo!

lpdiver says on Mar 2, 2005, 15:25:

elmo If I can get to Barranquilla without my wife can I date one of the primas? jejeje just joking

T

"cook some rice!"

teppar says on Mar 3, 2005, 03:50:

glad you guys.... glad you guys understand...and thanks for the best wishes...well i have a feeling that all this soul searching and fire in me after seeing those picts has spurred some changes...i just quit my job
:-S
i told them i'll leave at the end of this season which is the june/july.

elmo...stop inspiring me with picts before i do something else a bit nuts :-)

hee hee hee

cheers

elmodefoque says on Mar 3, 2005, 04:57:

Teppar, it just happens that I will be in Colombia for June/July and will be traveling alone/solo. My wife just dumped my ugly ass, says that I’m the complete opposite of most Colombians, I’m not ambitious and pretentious, that I’m too much of a costeño, a lazy, unpretentious bastard. This is an open invitation for the ladies, single, married or with boyfriends. If you’re looking for a 100% barranquillero, who’s only ambition in life is to work as least as possible, fornicate, drink and dance all day long, then I’m your man.

lpdiver, I’ve been trying to nail my cousins since they turned 15 (I was in my twenties) but had no luck. If you could bang them, more power to you

over 5 million colombianos in USA and only 27 barranquilleros, i'm one.Curramba, el mejor vividero del mundo!

dwmte says on Mar 3, 2005, 10:01:

heh, elmo... i went to see your photos but all i had was your member name and no password. it appears that everyone else got them opened. what did i do wrong?

dw

elmodefoque says on Mar 3, 2005, 10:14:

dwmte, no password needed, just hit the click on the barranquilla album

over 5 million colombianos in USA and only 27 barranquilleros, i'm one.Curramba, el mejor vividero del mundo!

dwmte says on Mar 3, 2005, 10:35:

finally figured it out... so which of those handsome devils is you. i figured out which one was the burra.

elmodefoque says on Mar 3, 2005, 10:41:

i was the one trying to bang la burra until i got closer and realized that it was a burro with 5 legs.

over 5 million colombianos in USA and only 27 barranquilleros, i'm one.Curramba, el mejor vividero del mundo!

init4ass says on Mar 3, 2005, 11:48:

the username does'nt work.

babygirl says on Mar 3, 2005, 14:09:

Thanks for letting us all see your pictures :) Looks like you had a hot time!!!!

Advice for people that can't get the user name to work, check the spelling...!!!!

cheers - babygirl

cheers - babygirl