Drugs, violence and death

I was in a violent relationship, my ex hit me so badly one time that I lost our baby boy (I was 6 months pregnant) he used to make my life so miserable after I lost his baby boy he became even worst he even suggested that I sleep with one of his friends to make money for him and when I decided to leave him he drugged me and raped me my family didn’t know and when they found out they almost killed him I then became really drawn and unhappy.

A friend of mine introduced me to what he said was the best herb there ever was he called it “la Mona�? I like it and got hooked on it, la mona made me laugh quite a lot it used to make hungry and it made me sleep for hours I almost forgot why I was unhappy in the first place, then came the coke revolution “perez�? or “charley�? as I used to call it, my family decided to trade it and made a business out of it, I used to go to Colombian clubs with my mates and went to the toilet to “powder my nose�? very often it made me shiver inside and gave me cold sweats but I felt like somebody was after me all the time, my face couldn’t stay still for one minute like it was braking into pieces, afterwards I became miserable and was paranoid most of the time so I stopped,

Then came the raves where I was partying for days on without stopping I was introduced to the happy pill which made me danced all night long and gave me this energy that I never believed I could have, it was exciting I was so energetic that I couldn’t stay still for one single moment. The raves where much better I was only partying with the odd glass of champagne and a few pills and plenty of water, I felt more alive and really happy but one day somebody gave me a dodgy pill which made me hallucinate I saw clowns in a big circus, I even thought that everybody had these bright blue eyes, there were monsters everywhere the floor was falling off in pieces and every time I made a step it was like if I was falling into a big black hole, it very was scary then I found out that the pill wasn’t ecstasy but ketamine it is deadly and doctors use it as anaesthesia, my life was very bad at that point.

Then came the beginning of the end I went out to a club with my friends where I took a hell of a lot of pills and some “charley�? from time to time, drank champagne all night and when we got home we started drinking Jack Daniels and sniffing poppers, this cocktail of drugs and alcohol sent me into a deep coma when I woke up a week later I was surrounded by my family who thought I had died, after this experience I swore never to touch drugs again.

I know that I joke about drugs but that’s as far as I go, it’s been real tough and a real challenge I have fallen off the wagon a few times but my family has been there to pick me up every time it was especially hard to go out clubbing and not even think about it but I did it and I’m proud of my self it was a time that I will never forget especially because I saw my own death and I came to close too it, I touched death with my own hands and it was a scary feeling.

Even though it was hard to achieve my goal of being clean I was even harder to see my mothers face when I came home that moment I realised what a selfish bitch I had been and my determination to fight this battle grew even stronger my family has given me all the strength that I needed, This happen a few years a go I am now clean as a whistle married to the person that helped me get clean he swore to get me back in my feet and that is what he did, we have a child together and they keep me going from strength to strength, they are the ones who keep me alive I’m now not only cleaned but a great mum and wife and a successful professional woman and I have my family to thank for they are my main and only priority, my dad was so distraught about it that he decided to clean up his act too he never touched drugs all he did was business but he realised what all these had done to me and he stopped living that life and is now a proper business person with his own building and construction company, you see people learn from their mistakes we Colombians are really messed up if it’s not drugs is something else let’s just hope that more people realised their wrongs in time and learn from their experiences too, so that we can make Colombia a better place! But who knows if this will ever happen? I really hope so..

By nanis on Jan 17, 2005, 12:36 in Friendly Talkzone.

Peter Miami says on Jan 17, 2005, 12:45:

I am proud of you! Keep up the good work.

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oldbongo says on Jan 17, 2005, 12:47:

un grande abrazo.... you are such a bright star...
your light illuminates the nether, and
communicates colors not articulated so well
ever before ....bravissimo!!

he/she..who feels it...knows it.

shine on girl....

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nanis says on Jan 17, 2005, 12:59:

THANKS GUYS not many people appreciate my efforts

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oldbongo says on Jan 17, 2005, 13:04:

don't worry about many people...doll.. or changing the course of the world..
just know that those who love you...appreciate you.
those that don't....keep them out of the circle.

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Desideria (Moderator) says on Jan 17, 2005, 13:13:

Mrs Gomez, I'm sure everybody who read your post supports you in your struggle out of the nightmarish life that you have so eloquently described. It's just that words don't come so easy when we're confronted with real-life situations full of dramatic and painful incidents told by the openness and candor you have exihibited. I personally have hard time relating, since my own life (with it's share of joy and sorrow) now seems like such a dance on a bed of roses.

Keep your hands on the plough, hold on! You've gotten over the worst and are making great progress. I admire your strength and honesty,
Cheers,
Desi

"I have opinions of my own, strong opinions, but I don't always agree with them."-President George W. Bush

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Albatross says on Jan 17, 2005, 13:21:

Yes, but you're still alive Except for the coma, it just sounds like growing up to me...

“Democracy - a pathetic belief in the collective wisdom of individual ignorance." - H.L. Mencken

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oldbongo says on Jan 17, 2005, 13:28:

albatross... you denigrate this person, and yourself,
with the use of the word ,"just"...
it implies normalcy....
and the intention of the poster,hethinks,
is to share with others, so that maybe, one less person might
think about these things, and not be "just" like the others.

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valdemar says on Jan 17, 2005, 13:41:

thanks Your story gives me alot of confidence to move on and concentrate on the right values in this life.

Chao - Jens

Chao - Jens

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Albatross says on Jan 17, 2005, 13:59:

? I meant to imply a certain normalcy, but I neither denigrate her nor myself. Of course what she went through was rough, but as I said, at least she survived... many don't. Getting mixed up in the "wrong things" is what people seem to do. Whether it's drinking/drugging themselves into oblivion at parties, wrapping their car around trees on the way home or getting shot in the streets of Bogotá. Add to this bad pregnancies, homelessness, disease, poverty, war and Britney Spears and it’s a miracle that anyone lives past 30.

So, as I said, just be glad that you’re still alive…

“Democracy - a pathetic belief in the collective wisdom of individual ignorance." - H.L. Mencken

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oldbongo says on Jan 17, 2005, 14:15:

that's much more.. revealing....and less rude.

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Lionheart says on Jan 17, 2005, 14:36:

Congratulations I am impressed with your efforts and I wish more of my friends had shown the same strength at the time when needed.

I grew up in the middle of the sex, drugs, and rock'n'roll aera in the 70s. I was bass player in a hard rock band in germany, so drugs were everywhere. I was professional DJ in rock clubs with go-go girls and more, drugs were everywhere. Luckily I hadn't tried the needle before an incident happened that made me clean. The power of the needle is stronger than death, I have seen it many times. One night all the band members were having a party, drinking, doing drugs, etc. when our singer/guitarrist went crazy. We think he did LSD and the needle at same time. He saw carrots growing in the TV set and wanted to eat them. Yes, it sounds funny. It wasn't funny when he used a 10 pound hammer to break the glass. The TV imploded, shooting glass shards everywhere into his body. Within 10 minutes he was dead. Witnessing this incident kept me clean from the hard stuff, I quit the lighter stuff then as well.

I know what drugs and addictions can do to your body and your brain. I have very high respect for anybody who can clean up their act and stay clean. Sad to say I am now witnessing many cases in the USA where the power of the pill is stronger than life, and I mean prescription pill addictions.

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